frustration

I do not like this search for noumena. If Noumena is the thing itself then what are we lookoing for? If waht we perceive is not reality then what is reality? and how will we know what it is if we find it? How will we be able to tell it apart from our perceptions? Maybe when we die there is no heaven or hell only reality. I find it extremely irritating that it is assumed that what are experiences are only perceptions and not reality. I think I'd rather just take my perceptions as reality and be done with it!!aggh!!